I've been pretending that i feel nothing. And how can anyone prove otherwise? I walk around with my automatic half smile and regulated demeanor. I think this gig is becoming second nature to me.
Problem is, i hurt inside. But i can't show it and i can tell anyone.. and ordinarily in times like this, I could cut myself and get over it. But i must not. Because if i don't cut, then who can say I'm feeling any pain? And if i don't laugh, who can say i find this to be humorous? And i don't jump, who can say that I've got suicide in my head?
No one.
And that's my best companion... no one.
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